Being Single Never Felt so Good

“Focus on loving yourself instead of loving the idea of other people loving you.”

IMG_1670You know what's beautiful? This moment right here. This moment of listening to your body. This moment of releasing negativity and welcoming positivity. To really take the time to soak in this moment is something that I never took time to do before. I was more focused on finding a partner. And when that didn't work. I would spend my time crying and thinking that there must be something wrong with me. If I wasn't thinking that. I was thinking why do I always end up dating guys who have no intention of wanting a relationship. . .

I lost love and my health. Now that I’m single, I have an opportunity to do all the things I put off while I was putting all my energy into my relationships. I have to believe that I will eventually have the things I lost, but for now I’m taking this time to enjoy myself and complete myself. I had enough of taking in people that don't have good intentions. I don't know what came over me this year.

Processed with VSCO with f1 preset

But this new energy feels damn good. I now take time for myself. Sit in a room and eliminate everything around me. Focus only on my breathing for 15 minutes. I went from 15 minutes to 30 minutes. I found myself healing my mind with meditation. The practice of not thinking of the past or the future reduced. This helped me forget about my past relationships. Leave it far behind and focus on the present. This also made it easy for me to let go of people who no longer made me happy or helped me grow.

And that's when I decided that person who should help me grow and be happy starts within me. I have been catering to myself. And there's no shame in that. When i'm feeling emotional in any way. I jot it down in my journal. Writing every emotion down forced me to learn things about myself I either didn't know or did know but I always brushed it off and ignored it. Now I embrace that I am sensitive. I always labeled sensitivity as weakness. But it isn't and it shouldn't be. This is my time of reflection. This is the time of acceptance and letting go.

I have my days when i feel alone and would like to have a partner to talk to when i'm feeling down. But I have a good support system. Spending time with my friends and siblings relaxes me. And now that I’m single, I have even more time to devote to being there for them.  I believe that everything in life is a process. When something dramatic and fast hits us, it will take time to process it and start over. I am starting over. I still have a lot to learn, understand, and explore. I sometimes need to be reminded to be grateful for what I have.

Change comes from within. You alone have to decide if you want that change.

 

Advertisements

2 Comments

  1. Nano

    Let me start off by saying I love the way you express yourself, you have a very genuine way of doing so. This blog reads of someone who finally came to the realization that they need to deal with certain aspects of themselves I.E. someone who finally realizes that they are lost. The central Focus that you are meditating on is finding someone who fulfills your needs, instead of finding what are the needs that fulfill you, and with this you are no longer lost. Now you have a purpose. If your aim is to find someone who fulfills your purpose, you will depend on them to give you guidance. Be your own guide, and in this you will find The Seeker is never lost.

    1. foodenmybelly

      Hey there. And thanks for your kind words. I’m going to review this post again. I think I put out the wrong message. I am working on fulfilling my needs. My aim is to definitely start valuing myself and not relying on someone else to fill them. May I ask what part of ny post made you see it that way, please.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s